In the mind of a Writer

Where is the balance?

“Being a writer is complicated.”

“In what way? The plots, the characters, the words?”

“The guilt.”

“You feel guilty when you don’t write.”

“I do.”

“So when you write it’s okay.’

“Oh, no. I feel ever more guilty when I do write.””

Joseph R Kennedy wrote it the NaNoWriMo group. . .

I replied with. . . “I totally get this. . . I feel worthless when I don’t write, but guilty when I write too much. You can never seem to write when you manage to get those 5 minutes of your own time. . .”

The thing is how does one find balance with living life and writing. I mean I have heard of mothers/fathers working, doing errands, chores, dealing with kids and pets, and still managing to find time to get 2k words or more a day. I also heard of people writing 100,000 to 250,000 words or higher with NaNoWriMo. I just really don’t know how they do it.

I know sometimes I need more life experience and inspiration and I want to go out and get that, but I want to write too. Grrrr.

All I know is I feel unproductive when I don’t write. I mean I could clean the entire house, make a seven course mean, pay all of my bills, and I would still unproductive if I didn’t write that day. I know it sounds crazy, but I feel the most as myself in front of a written screen or with a pen in my hand.

So yes I feel guilty when I don’t write, and I really feel guilty when I do write. (Even now I know I have dishes to do, but I really want to write this blog.)

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