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Bitter Sweet

Bitter Sweet

Rebekah © June 2012

Sitting in a valley
With the humid rain
Tear pouring
Recycled pain

 All is complete
But nothing is done
Battles are fought
But nothing was won

Fighting with myself
Searching for release
Mojo is gone
There is no relieve

Happiness is far away
Hope is distant
Sadness replays
Greif is instant

Accomplishment in front of me
But I am blind
World strikes again
But I am still kind

Children’s laughter
Mocks my ears
I am barren
With only tears

 Sitting here alone
In my own defeat
It completed
So it is all just bitter sweet.

“It is Finished”

I thought I would feel amazed, relieved, happy, and ecstatic that I got my book: that I was able to see something that I struggled with and accomplished. However I sit here and I feel like a summer day after a hot rain and that did nothing, but make it more humid. I know I am fried, depressed, and just exhausted. I got my book printed and sent back to me with over two weeks to spare.

“The Whispering Path” was 776 pages (6×9 large print); it was much bigger than I had planned. Tom says it is the unabridged edition. (My fourth edit: the first entire part is getting taken out as I realized looking back; it wasn’t much to the story line.)  

I have it on for 16.99 for the paperback. I plan to get the kindle version working soon.

I am just curious why I am not happy about this. I feel like I am sitting in a valley and I cannot get out.